Haven't posted for a while now, this month is going really quickly. Anyway I'm only posting cos I'm actually bored out of my mind, I moan when I'm fed up and have nothing to do and then I'll moan when I have to go back to Uni cos I'll have too much to do.
Went into town this morning for something to do and get a few bits, god Castleford gets scarier every time I leave the house, town is full of effing freaks and weird looking people and weird smelling people. I really do not like it. Yeah places like Leeds are full of weirdos and homeless people as well but theres an equal numbers of weirdos to non weirdos whereas in Cas it feels more like a 90/10 split. Its not doing me any good being stuck here, the longer I stay here the more chance I have of turning into one of them.
Then I came home and wasted my life on the internet, I really want to read a book or something and do something useful but I just can't be bothered and thoughts of returning to uni are depressing me further.
I had a headache yesterday and didn't take any painkillers for it and the headache got worse and worse and I went to bed and I couldn't sleep cos I was in so much pain and I woke up this morning and still had headache, tho its not as bad now almost bearable. So yeah my point being I didn't take any paracetamol even though I really wanted to and I put up with the pain, although this may seem trivial is a really big achievement for me! Its been over 2 weeks since I took any drugs now. I'll shut up now, I won't turn it into Blog Of A Drug Addict.
Back to Uni soon :( I've really enjoyed this summer been to loads of gigs and passed my driving test but I have to go back and get myself educated and actually put more effort in this year as it's more important and start thinking about the future and jobs etc. I feel old, I'll be 20 in less than 3 months thats just mental I don't wanna be 20 thats like officially old, I'll have to like stop being a retard :( Congrats if you got to the end of this btw, cyaa!
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